two sides

side one: the one that wants this to end
this side of me feels that this whole thing is a mistake. that this will all come to an end soon. that you will realize that you were being silly and you still love me and still mean all those wonderful things you said to me. this side is the hopeful side. the side that i want to win but everyone tells me its a longshot. this side is the one with hope this side has faith in the love we shared for almost two years. this side still believes all the promises you made. this side looks for hope in everything (maybe not a good idea). this side wants things to go back to the ways they used to be. remember those days? just staring at each other like losers. this side still truly believes we are meant to be and can make it through any and everything. this side cant let go of this love. this side recognizes that the love was real. this side still wants you despite everything. this side cant believe this is happening.

side 2: the side that hurts
this is the side that takes to heart what you said about your feelings being gone and not coming back. this is the side saying that i need to get over you. forget about those promises. this is the side that tells me its over gaby. you had a good run but you hit the wall and nobody is willing to push forward with you. this side tells me that not everything was as it seems. this side seeks comfort in trying to doubt everything but really all it finds is pain. this side wants to take everyones advice and stay away but the other side always prevents it. this side wants to let you go and let all the feelings go and get over this. this side still cant believe this is happening.