heartbreak

so most of you know by now that dann broke up with me.
everyone is telling me that blogging will help
so thats why im here. im realy hoping it will cuz this is so hard for me.
if in anyway you can relate to this contact me..we can vent to each other =]

anyways so dann. dann was and still is the love of my life. even though he has hurt me more than any person can hurt me and yet i still have this love for him. he was my first everything.
i gave my all to him and he let me fall...hard, without bothering to catch me or even let me know i was going to fall and get hurt. there is so much of me that wants to be mad at him and hate him but i just cant.

its hard to explain how much i love him but ill try. he wasn't just my boyfriend. he was my bestfriend. the true definition of a best friend. the person that you really can just talk to about anything. whether it be family problems or feeling like shit cuz your on your period. i really held nothing back. i felt comfortable enough with him to just let go and be me. i wasn't self concious of always worrying about what i was saying or doing or wearing. i could just be around him. we were so good for each other. (geez it hurts talking about our relationship in the past tense..) what i didnt have he did and what he didnt i did. we helped eached other through our hardest times. he was there for me on my dark days and vice versa. i know this is so cliche but i really believe we completed each other. he was such a big part of my daily routine. my day would begin and end with him.
now when i wake up the first thing i think about is him...
i think about how alone i feel..
about what i used to be doing at this time..
telling him thanks for the wake up and grumbling ilove you cuz im grumpy in the mornig..
hear him laugh and say i love you too baby have a good day..
reminscing hurts but in a time like this i cant help it. i dont think anyone can really..
what hurts the most about all this is the worthlessness i feel..
from my point of view i see a great relationship was just thrown away..
i feel that i wasn't worth his time and effort to make this work..
i know this is not the way i need to think but again..i cant control it.
when i think about this wholee situation i doubt the past two years of my life..
its jjust doubts