from the depths of the mississippi

i never seem to keep up with this. oh wells.
anyways kinda have alot on my mind and im not sure if i can get it all down clearly. try and follow.
so lately things have been good but then not good. like i have what i want but not how i want it i guess. maybe im just too picky. when things came crashing down i never thought i would reach the point where they could come back together. but like in all things its never the same. it may come back together but never without the cracks and scars. not without the reminder that it was once broken. when something shatters its nearly impossible to gather all the pieces. there is always something missing. whether you find it through time is impossible to determine. whether the missing piece is important to the whole, you'll find out right away. work through it? or leave it unfinished?
work through it most def. why turn around when you've come so far. turning around would just take you back to where you have already been. take you through things you've already felt. not what i want. what i want: to experience new things. wheher they be good or bad its worth the journey to find out. if i get hurt i know i have a support system that can sustain me. i just need to learn to fall and trust them to catch me. trust that they'll help lift me back up if i need them to do so.
ehh not a clear point at all. sry. didnt really get it all down another time.
time to decide what i wanna do before i die and for love and rockets =D
comprende?