frustrated

i hate how everything and everyone is so restricted.
how there are so many boundaries.
how you cant do one thing cuz of another thing
i hate how the drama just takes over.
i just wish we could wipe the slate clean.
i hate how the past always dictates the future,
how because it went bad then, there is no chance now.
why cant things go back to like how they were?
hella close. clicked like that. instant friends. soul friends i think we said.
went you about EVERYTHING.
helped me with dann problems.
parental problems.
friend problems.
i'd like to think i was a good friend and a help to you too.
just miss the friendship. haven't clicked with alot of people the way i did with you.
anyways, i just hate how the close friendship is gone.

frustration number 2
how things just dont seem to be working out. ugh.

two hours later..

frustration number 3
i hate how one sided i am. why cant things that i let myself do, why cant i let you do the same.
does my guilt affect what i think of you? if so, im sorry. i do this to myself. this is just venting. just letting it out. telling somebody. anybody. even though you may not completely understand whats going on it just feels good to get things out.