time

time for a change.
time for things to go my way.
time for me to get my head on straight.
time to move already.
+
time to move ON already.
time to grow up.
time to figure this out.
time to do things MY way.
time to figure YOU out.
time for a change.
small? big?
out? in?
i dont even know.



been awhile since my last post.
merry christmas all. hope your holidays were all fantastic.
mine were spent cramped in a house with people i didnt really like.
thats ok i had the mountain. i didnt realize how much i really enjoy tahoe until this christmas.
being on the mountain by yourself. just the fresh white snow, not yet touched. just waiting there for you to make YOUR marks in it. the beautiful views. it was the first time in a long time where i was just able to sit back and focus on me. riding up to the top of that mountain, all around me beautiful snow and scenery was amazing. gave me time to myself to just sit and think. let my mind wander. follow it. try and figure it out. i realized im a pretty screwed up person. wtf. made some dumbass decisions. dumbass mistakes. dumbass dumbass dumbass. but because i recognize it now i think i can turn around.
i have regrets. i know thats something alot of people never want to admit but im gonna do it. i have regrets. question. is a regret still a regret if it wasn't done by your actions or your doing? example: can you regret something someone else has done to you? can i regret HIM leaving?
yes because, maybe inadvertently caused that. maybe the leaving was an effect of something i did. a repercussion.
no because, you can never tell. you will never know if thats the reason. no because maybe it was just on him.



i just watched 500 days of summer.
i think i need to watch it again.
got distracted.
after i watch up =]


i know im skippin around.


sorry.

i cant focus. later.

"this generation plants the seeds. the next gets the shade"
sooooo what do we get....