today

was a good day.
daimo with kuya, ari, marky, michael.
berzerkely with the above.
ari meets church fam lol. craaaazy.
daimo. yuuuumaaayyy!
shopping? fashooooo!
new:
dress via buffalo exchange
shoes via bows and arrows
sunglasses via urban

got home. more christmas presents!!
new:
purse
jacket
workout clothes
nailpolish
movie (up)
book
money

wednesday should bring fun. and more stuff =]
happy holidays all.

time

time for a change.
time for things to go my way.
time for me to get my head on straight.
time to move already.
+
time to move ON already.
time to grow up.
time to figure this out.
time to do things MY way.
time to figure YOU out.
time for a change.
small? big?
out? in?
i dont even know.



been awhile since my last post.
merry christmas all. hope your holidays were all fantastic.
mine were spent cramped in a house with people i didnt really like.
thats ok i had the mountain. i didnt realize how much i really enjoy tahoe until this christmas.
being on the mountain by yourself. just the fresh white snow, not yet touched. just waiting there for you to make YOUR marks in it. the beautiful views. it was the first time in a long time where i was just able to sit back and focus on me. riding up to the top of that mountain, all around me beautiful snow and scenery was amazing. gave me time to myself to just sit and think. let my mind wander. follow it. try and figure it out. i realized im a pretty screwed up person. wtf. made some dumbass decisions. dumbass mistakes. dumbass dumbass dumbass. but because i recognize it now i think i can turn around.
i have regrets. i know thats something alot of people never want to admit but im gonna do it. i have regrets. question. is a regret still a regret if it wasn't done by your actions or your doing? example: can you regret something someone else has done to you? can i regret HIM leaving?
yes because, maybe inadvertently caused that. maybe the leaving was an effect of something i did. a repercussion.
no because, you can never tell. you will never know if thats the reason. no because maybe it was just on him.



i just watched 500 days of summer.
i think i need to watch it again.
got distracted.
after i watch up =]


i know im skippin around.


sorry.

i cant focus. later.

"this generation plants the seeds. the next gets the shade"
sooooo what do we get....

the calm after the storm

ahhhh.life has been good. not great but good. not without its stuggles and dips but when is that EVER happening. met new faces. one of them really cute =] haha daaayyym. that smiles been pasted lately hehe. we'll see what happens. my birthday passed. laaaaved it. haha i never thought that a surprise party i knew about could surprise me that much haha. missed some faces there but its all good. recap shall we?
woke up early -_-
went to vallejo and did chores -_-
to costco with moms and wawee
swooped by lana =D
to dollar store for new jar for all the fucking coins that spilled in her car. ha
forgot i still had moms keys to back to costco -_- her alarm was going off heehee
lunch at L&L =]
coinstar at raley's =]
pierced at jeffs (shit hurrrrrttttt!!!! FAAAACK!)
drop jeff and cousin off in AC
me and lana are in fuckn paaaaiin!
to ann's to get reaady
3 of us head to WC for shopping
urban=]
true=] see danns sister...not as awkward as i imagined..
back to anns.
get blindfolded an abused in the car.
kidnapped by shy tai, wheat, convey, and peepeeopi.
abused in that car too haha
surprised at pasta pomodoro by all my niggas!
ate a nasty ass birthday bowl.
spit it out in the garbage
washed it down with my cake and ice cream =]
bitches tried to crash. just left w/o saying shit like dumb ass niggas haha. looked hella dumb walking in and just leaving. wooow.
drama -_-
chilled in parking lot
target haha
drama-_-
home. haha kevin and nick =]
comp.
birthday wishes.
phone.
sleep =]

through the clouds

things have been good lately. done with the dark days. ready for new things =] haha
schools been stressful. work overload. stressing hella for alg 2 and chem. not confident at all breh. daaayyym. drama going around again =/ needa break from that men.
birthday is coming up!! so excited! should be a great distraction from everything. just hope all plans go through. i wasn't reall that excited for my birthday earlier this year but for some reason im just hellllllla exited aha.
lightweight failed attempt for a surprise ha! but thats ok. they tried. llaaaave you.

so after my church service last week i've really learned to be more thankful. i've learned to really see the positives in my life and be thankful for them everyday. you never know when the things you take for granted will disappear. cherish what you have when you have it, learn to live and be happy when its gone.